Ok, I had to do it. I admit it’s a act of a fanboy. I like to think I’m not a total fanboy. I don’t dress up as a character or any really weird shit like that. I do love the movies. I even had been on record as saying that I wasn’t going to see the movie on opening night to avoid the crazy mad rush of the crowds. You should have seen the night Star Wars was re-released. It was a mad house. So for those of you who are not going or couldn’t get tickets I have for your enjoyment the scanned images of my tickets.

Well I wasn’t going to write about the new job. I all most did yesterday. So I decided fuck it I can’t help I am the way I am. I like to think I’m just exercising my constitutional rights as a US citizen. I know to some of you that this may seem like a lame excuse? But hey it’s my site I will write what I like.

It’s just that last night at “work” I had a some what negative experience. I was plugging away on the some what boring task of putting all of these thingies into some whatcamacalits, thinking I was doing so at a good pace. Well the supervisor comes over and asked me how many I had put together. So I tell her that I had about 4o done, again thinking that I was doing good. So she figures out the rate I should be working at that I should have had 80 done. Well this crushes me. I like to think when I’m doing something that I doing it good.

You should have seen me. Here I am a grown man the age of 27 ready to cry because I’m doing a real horrible job at what I’m doing. I was thinking to myself “Fuck it. You’ll go back to the hotel and crawl on your hands and knees and beg for your job back. You can throw yourself at their feet and promise not to write bad things about them on the Internet ever again.” I even at that moment for the first time was thinking that this website of mine has really fucked up my life. Because of this site I can’t get a job in the hotel business. And without the hotel business I have nothing. Up until this night I honestly never felt that this website may have been a mistake. I wonder now.

I sit here typing this and I tell myself that the website didn’t cause my problems. That I have not done anything wrong by writing stuff here. Yet I still have a nagging doubt. My life is kind of in the shitter. I have drawn unemployment for as long as I really want to. I could probably get another month, it’s just that I don’t want to. Up until the hotel showing me the exit hatch I had always worked. This is my first time being fired and the first time I have had to collect unemployment. I have computer stuff I want to buy, that’s why unemployment can’t work. So therefore I need a job.

To wrap up, I guess what I’m saying is I really hate my fucking job. Don’t get me wrong. The people I work with are nice enough. Maybe a little bit on the weird side. But hey, so were the people at the hotel. I realize it’s only been a week, and that it will take a while to pick up everything. But fuck I feel that I could be doing something better than this. Doing this shit really makes me think about college. Well that’s all for now.

Well it seems that the restaurant operates just like the front desk, because I had one restaurant employee who fired off this e-mail:

Turk,

I totally agree with you that it is a cold day in hell before you get a raise at the Hotel. People (Managers) are so God-damn greedy that they do what is in the best interest for themselves. The only one that matters to them is me, myself, and I. I am sure you found that out. Hell the department I work in gives reviews once every 395 days. One acquires about a twenty to thirty cent raise. That’s BullShit!

HELLO AGAIN. I HAVE NOT SEEN OR HEARD FROM YOU IN A FEW WEEKS BUT I DO KNOW YOU ARE STILL AROUND WITH THAT DEVIANT AND WONDERFUL MIND OF YOURS. JUST SOMETHING YOU MIGHT LIKE TO POST AS I LET OFF SOME STEAM FROM MY PLACE OF EMPLOYMENT THAT I KNOW YOU HOLD AS DEAR TO YOUR HEART AS I DO MINE(NOT!) ANYWAYS AS YOU KNOW TURK I HAVE BEEN EMPLOYED AT THAT FIERY PIT THEY LIKE TO CALL A GREAT PLACE TO WORK FOR THE LAST SIX MONTHS. NOW UPON MY AGREEING TO GIVE UP MY NIGHT LIFE FOR FOUR DAYS A WEEK TO ENJOY A MEAGER PAY CHECK I WAS PROMISED A REVIEW AND A RAISE AFTER 3 MONTHS. STILL NADA. I PESTERED THE FERRY (YOU KNOW WHO I MEAN TURK) FOR MY REVIEW AFTER I HAD BEEN WORKING FOR TWO MONTHS BECAUSE AS YOU KNOW HOW LONG IT TAKES FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN AROUND THERE UNLESS IT IS AN EMPLOYEE LEAVING AGAINST THERE WILL. I WASN’T EXPECTING IT ON TIME JUST WITHIN A MONTH OR SO. WELL HERE IT IS 3 MONTHS AFTER MY REVIEW WAS SUPPOSE TO BE GIVEN AND STILL NADA. I WAS WONDERING OH WISE AND WONDERFUL ONE (SORRY I HAD TO) WHETHER OR NOT YOU WOULD HAVE SOME ADVISE OR IF YOU COULD TELL ME IF I AM BABBLING A LOST CAUSE. DROP ME AN EMAIL AND LET ME KNOW. AND THANK YOU FOR PROVIDING A PLACE FOR US TO VENT! YOUR #1 FAN WITH UNDYING DEVOTION.

Here’s one that should be up your alley if your a X-Files fan or just generally paranoid about the shit the government pulls behind our back. As the owner of the site says “The Black Vault is not much of a web site, but an online research center for curious minds, students, and everyone alike.”

As far as I know only one person managed to hit me here with my home computer acting as server. My connection is shit. I have been disconnected more times than I can remember. The temporary address has changed as many times as I have been disconnected. By the time anyone reads this, you should be reading this at the www.hotelblues.com domain. My host’s server took a dive and they had to repair it.

I’m going to skip the link of the day. I’m feeling to lazy to dig up any info on a site. I would just slap up a url, but I feel that would be sloppy. I have added a page to the Comic section on some of the characters in Cerebus. So far I have covered Cerebus himself. So go and take a look.

Now this is really cool. The Bell Labs Text-to-Speech Synthesizer is the ultimate time killer. It will even do swear words. Cool huh? If you are to lazy to come up with your own smart alec remarks, here is a wav(817kb) it made converting the text of my April 10th post into speech. Now everyone behave and do not abuse this wonderful toy. I’m thinking of plugging in my “All managers are excrement” rant and seeing how it sounds read aloud.