I go to get fitted for my tux tomorrow for the wedding on the 7th of August. I’m starting to remember how much I really like wearing tuxes. Get me one of those and I can’t help but think about my days as the prom king in high school. I really am kind of excited about all this wedding stuff to be honest. It’s going to be a good night. I’ll see a lot of people I haven’t seen in a long time.

Also there is the birthday party for Mike (and one other person) tonight. I’m looking forward to that. It will be a lot of fun. And of course I’ll be getting drunk off my ass. I’ve been doing that a lot as of late. I’m thinking about quitting drinking. Not because of any worries of me having a drinking problem. Nah it’s more of an issue how counter productive it is to my mild effort to get into some kind of shape.

I want to go into a whole tangent about a lot of stupid shit. But I keep finding myself holding back. It’s not that I really worry if Gawain calls me a pussy or not. I don’t mind that. It’s just this whole website thing used to be a lot more private. Well not private really, just a lot of you folks just don’t have any idea what the hell I’m talking about. Now it’s just read by to many people that know me and the subject matter. That’s what I get I guess.

Radio silence has been in effect the last week or so. Of course you really can’t call it radio silence here on the internet. But the idea is meant to have the same effect. That and the plain fact of the matter is that I have had nothing really worth writing about.

Sure I could have wrote about how I, Robot didn’t suck all the dick I had expected it to. But frankly I’m tired of the subject. That and the truth being I don’t really know Asimov’s book the film was loosely based on all that well. So I’ll leave that kind of discussion for people that know what their talking about.

I really haven’t done much since the last post. I haven’t played World of Warcraft in while. Just been to tired to play. Work has been rough the last few days. Being broke sucks and affects the job. No money equals no pop which means no caffeine to keep me going through the night. I get paid on monday thank god.

But that won’t fix to many problems. The wedding I get to be an usher in is on the 7th of August. Now I don’t get paid until the 10th in August. So I got to use the money from the check on monday to pay for this tux. Which sucks because this is the check I pay my dad a humble amount for rent. To make matters worse I may have to work the night of the 7th. Which is no problem really other than it will be a long night. I’m still pretty determined to stay quit as far as drinking goes.

Other than that there is nothing else to report at this time.

I’m going to share with you all a secret. It’s something I’ve been thinking about now for a while. Something that’s been in the back of my mind for a long time. I will forget about this secret now and then. But events recently have brought this notion back to mind.

The secret is that I’m going to quit the hotel. I’ve been at the place for a long time now. I’ve seen employees come and go. And I can’t forget the way things used to be. Almost all of the people that were my friends are long gone. I’m a dinosaur that should have went extinct a long time ago. Every time the place gets new owners or new managers I’ll hear the phrase change is good.

Except I just can’t accept that. Change may be good for them. Change has always been something I have hated. There isn’t a spot at that hotel that doesn’t remind of the ways things used to be. Reminders of just how much the place has really changed. It’s got to the point that I just can’t continue. Going to work now is so hard. It’s just simply time to leave. Because those good days I remember so well can never come again.

And this departure I plan probably won’t happen anytime soon. I can’t just quit. I will have to find a job first before I make my exit. It will be hard. It will be hard to leave the hotel. It will be hard finding a new job. I should have went to school. I should have made different decisions in life. But I have no one to blame but myself. Maybe I’ll get lucky. Just maybe things will go my way.