The Beloit Daily News had an article called Durand halts SoBos’ late comeback in last Saturdays paper that I missed. Here is a small bit from that article:

“The kids didn’t let themselves give up,” Martens said.

And I hope they don’t ever give up. I can’t really say more than that.

I have never had to deal with this kind of situation. Not in the virtual world which I play in. I’m kind of at a loss for words. Here is what sad news Gawain had to deliver in the forums this morning:

For those of you who were wondering where Marisin has been these last couple months (or even remember he was in the guild) his name was Scott Maddox, and he has been in the hospital with some serious health problems. He died today. I got the call at about 9:30am, and I don’t know the details yet, but there you are.

I really don’t know what to say. Marisin was a great guy. He was one of the few guildies I truly looked forward to talking to online. I didn’t know him that long. But in the time I had to pleasure to know the man, I know that logging in to DAoC now knowing he will not ever be there again to exchange witty comments with; well it saddens me in a way that I just don’t have the words to explain.

Please take a chance to stop by the forum thread. Leave a few kind words. Tell a story about the man named Scott Maddox who you may or may not have known as Marisin. Also if you have the time and you want to know more about the man behind Marisin, stop by Scott’s website. When more info comes my way I will post it here.

This post was more or less a cut and pasted from the AoD Site. Marisin was an in game character for the man named Scott Maddox, who has never been mentioned at Hotelblues.com before. Scott’s website (it’s the one called Chrome Magnum Man) has been over in the quick links over on the right for a while now. I wanted to put this up here as well just to make sure that any guildies who may or may not check this site first sees this message.

I have opened the forum that Gawain’s post is in up so anyone can reply to this thread. But I want to make it very clear that anyone who takes advantage of this and says anything that even in the slightest way comes off like disrespect I will ban you from my website and from the forums. No warning. No second chances. Please have some respect on this subject.

I can’t personally stress how much I like Ad-aware. Because I just hate spyware so much. My hate for spyware equals my hate for spam. Some people at work don’t understand these kinds of things though. Look at the below screenshot and ask yourself would I click yes or no on the Security Warning window?

Well someone here at the hotel clicked yes. They clicked yes lots of times. Take a look at this cut and paste of Ad-aware results after doing a scan. It makes me wonder sometimes. But thanks to good old Ad-aware the work computer is back to normal.

Lavasoft Ad-aware Personal Build 6.181
Logfile created on :Tuesday, September 09, 2003 11:15:13 PM
Created with Ad-aware Personal, free for private use.
Using reference-file :01R217 08.09.2003
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Ad-aware Settings
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Set : Activate in-depth scan (Recommended)
Set : Safe mode (always request confirmation)
Set : Scan active processes
Set : Scan registry
Set : Deep scan registry

(more…)

Some times the humor of a situation escapes me. This forum post made me want to just say whatever kind words I could muster. I figured I would try to contact the person that made the post. But I’m not sure of how to do that. So I tried iming the hotmail account that’s in the last post over at Chrome’s site. I wasn’t sure who the account belonged to so I tried to just get a conversation going. This is the response I got:

Now death hasn’t been something I’m good at dealing with. When given the chance to prepare for it, I do ok. But when it just happens I kind of have a hard time. I didn’t know Chrome for as long and as well as some other people. But the response I got wasn’t what I expected. It kind of pissed me off to be honest.

I didn’t act in my usual hostile manner. I just exited politely. And maybe this all shouldn’t bother me as much as it does. But it does. Chrome passing has been hard for me. I guess it goes back to the post Band Of Brothers. But I didn’t take into consideration the thought of losing these “virtual friends” I have made.

Maybe it’s more than that. Maybe it’s because I saw a lot of me in Chrome. Enough for this to bother me as much as it is. Maybe it makes me realize my mortality. I don’t know. I don’t have any answers. I’m not even sure of the questions. Maybe it’s just me. That’s to many maybes.

I’m pissed. But more importantly I’m an asshole. Just so you know. I don’t think I’m going to work tonight or any other god damned night.

Fuck it. I was going to write about how the job sucks the big one. I was going to write about how I don’t give a fuck about whether I have the job or not. I was going to write about how I feel about the people I work with. But then I went over to Gawain’s site and listened to the Tom Petty song The Last DJ and then I read the lyrics to the song. And in a weird way the song could apply to me. The more I listen to the tune the more I like it. The first two verses I like the best:

well, you can’t turn him
into a company man
you can’t turn him into a whore
and the boys upstairs
just don’t understand anymore

the top brass don’t like him
talking so much
and he won’t play
what they say to play
and he don’t want to change
what don’t need to change

I realized that writing all of this angry shit I want to spew to the internet won’t do anything. It won’t make the shit change at the job. It’s to bad. The place used to be fun. But I guess all good things come to an end.